Feeling so exhausted. On the one hand I know I need to stop b&p and starving myself, but on the other hand I am no where near happy with myself and or my body to start making positive changes that will ultimately lead to weight gain.. My Ed has completely consumed all of my thoughts and energy. I can stay positive and fake it through most of the day but as soon as I come home and am alone I can no longer keep it together and I fall apart. Have not self harmed in months but it's getting to the point where even those urges are becoming unbearable. How do i push through my unhealthy thoughts and realize that the part that wants to get rid of the Ed is the right way to go :(
I can understand the daily battle...but know you're not alone...we are here for you! Sending you positive vibes!!!