Feeling very ridiculous at this time, it's been almost five years since my divorce and I'm realizing I didn't deal with it all, I was busy working to get time with my kids and then custody after she started abusing them, now it's been a year since I obtained custody and their safe, and it's like now I get to deal with all of this
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It's ok. Don't feel ridiculous. Good that you are realizing it now and even greater that you put your kids first.
Great you are realizing you have some emotive to deal with. Take time now for yourself. All you feelings are normal.
@Jenn7814
It feels extremely weird to hurt over her now, this really came out of nowhere I was doing fine ,really good even I haven’t been bitter, I’m just frustrated to be feeling this now after so long when I really was good it’s like I had a jar of pain on a shelf and it just flew off and busted on the ground, and it’s not like I haven’t felt any of this, I felt it when I caught her cheating, I felt it when she stood over me with a knife in the middle of the night repeatedly trying to work up her nerve ( she still doesn’t know I know I never told her I was awake ) I felt it when she wouldn’t let me see the kids, I’m sorry for venting I just wish I could understand
Thanks jenn, the truth is I see the door, my way through I just don't want to feel anymore pain from her, I don't want to allow her to effect me anymore, but this door looks like I have to feel a lot of pain, like after everything and there was a bunch I now have to hurt over her and the things she did and didn't do
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@bear1976 unfortunately the pain comes with letting go of a relationship that you cared for but now hurts you. Pain is normal and people find their ways through it. For now just be in survival mode to deal with the feelings of it all. But when you start to feel some hope of getting better, hang on to it and start moving forward. You will get tired of hearing it, but stay focused on any positives. Work hard or letting the past be a part of your past so you can have a good future.