First Date

So I'm going out with a boy for the first time in almost 2 years. It's been about a month since I broke up with my girlfriend. I really like this boy because we both seem to have our fair share of baggage. I'm worried though because tommorrow, we're spending the day together, and he's insisting that we plan nothing. This creates several problems. I schedule my days down to the min. I have to otherwise everything just feels thrown off and wrong. I eat at set times and at set amounts that I can only really do at home. If we're spending the entire day together just running around town and picking up lunch, it sounds cute, but mentally so disorganized. I reallyyy don't want to blow it with this kid, so does anyone have any tips on how to get through this mentally and still have a good time?

Brooke

how bout just tryn to relax. let the happy thoughts fill your mind n just let go for once, it might help wit the stress to just go wit the flow every now n then

I don't know how to do that unless I take my Xanax, which I've been trying to stop taking. And even when I'm on it, it's sooo hard to get off schedule, and I don't want to freak him out with it.

yea, idk, try yoga or something. find somethin to help with the stress besides pills. i used to do that too but finally quit, you just have to have a reason to do it. to keep you going..idk its kina hard to explain n im sorry if im not makin sense

Elph....I think that staying on schedule with your meal plan is of the utmost importance. How about telling this person that you have low blood sugar (which you may!), and you have to eat at certain times to keep your energy level up? Or, if you are not afraid of being open, tell him that you are working recovery from an eating disorder, and it's important that you plan the food/eating part of your day? Then, plan it, and go on and enjoy the other things that come up. I know it's hard to let go of the anxiety, but letting it out can often help so much in the long run.
I hope you have a great day! Jan ♥

So today went pretty well with Jordan. I ate before he picked me up, and even though the whole disorganized part of it threw me off, we did end up having a pretty good day :)

I'm glad you were able to think ahead and avoid at least some of the food issues. One step at a time....Jan ♥

hurray for brooke and jordan having a pretty good day...
namaste
amy xo