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Hi everyone. I'm new to this so I'm not really sure how it works. Lately my binge eating has gotten so out of control I find myself breaking down and crying throughout every day. I don't know how to cope and I don't know how to stop. It's like half of my brain is yelling at me to stop because I'm not hungry and the other half is yelling at me to keep going, that this will be the last day of this and I'll start over tomorrow. It seems as if my eating and exercise habits ruin my day every time. I don't know if I'm strong enough to keep fighting this every hour of every day..

Hello, and welcome to the site :) Do you currently see an ED specialist?

Thank you! Yes I do, however it seems the only advice she gives me is to eat more protein and calcium so my bones won't break from running. It just doesn't seem helpful, and as time goes on it feels as through no one will be able to help me out of this. I'm so afraid I'll lose complete control and gain weight. It leaves me feeling hopeless and depressed every day.

Have you considered inpatient or outpatient care?

I haven't only because I go to school full time and lead an extremely busy life. I feel I barely have time to see my counselor most weeks. I know that I should make a commitment to receive better help but it's so hard to give up anything else.

i am in the exact same position as you. whenever i binge, i keep going because i tell myself tomorrow i wont do it any more. if only it were that easy.
ive also experienced all the crying like you have too. any little flaw in my day can bring me to tears, and i hate feeling like that. i want to be able to live a normal, worry-free life and have a healthy relationship with eating/ im sure you do too.
good luck and know you can do this!