For 4 years now nobody cares if I am alive or dead, and nobody would know.
the only person whom really needs to care is you the rest are just a bonus.........even the most isolated people when they pass are missed by someone........that being said..........why do you feel this way?
Hey! why are you saying like that... that nobody cares if you are alive or dead... is noone try to talk with you from your family from last 4 years ?
Hi guys, first dare. I get your theory, but that is easily said by someone who is happily married, hasn't experienced true isolation with no family or friends whatsoever for this long. Humans, like birds, wolves need socialisation. It is very motivating having someone to talk/listen to, flesh and blood. Dear spears I am saying it like that because it is absolutely true. There is no one to make any arrangements when I pass dare so I will stink out my buliding before they chuck me in a black zip bag and there will be no one to make arrangements for my dog a rescue with challenging behaviour she will be put to sleep. I will have no cremation/service. What happens to peoples bodies who have only debt and no family or friends after they are gone? My Grandparents brought me up because my one parent Mother was a psycopath but she wouldn't allow that either, so I had to be independent from age fifteen. I was homeless with no job and no guardian to sign for me to get any benefits. My Grandparents are obviously dead now. I am 41 but my half sister who is a sociopath has also slandered, assaulted, coerced me all my life until I basically signed over my inheritance. A check in my name from my Grandparents to them to get the peace I now have. The best it can be. My Mother religiously abused me as a kid treated me like Carrie or ****** the anti christ from the films. Never let me sleep and carried me into her peadophile partners bed and left me there alone for him to stub his cigarettes out on me after he had finished on waking I was petrified, as you can imagine. I do not feel this way dare. It is a fact. The truth. Obviously it feels finishingly and destroyingly awful. Alternative? Be abused. No thanks. Yes spears I looked after my entire family and extended family while I was a train guard operator and manager with no jobs all at school or retired with no money. At least they wanted to know me then. In 2011 things started to break down then my soul mate of fifteen years who saved my life, my dog had to be put to sleep after I had orthopeadic and traumatic surgery and I was accused of doing something I hadn't done for nine months at work by a manager who in the end when I near to losing my job completely admitted that he was wrong, but I couldn't get one apology or have my grievance progressed (the process had broken my confidence).
@DeadEagle Ahh i m feeling very very sad for you. Well still i m young and not face or see such things in my life as you tell me and may be i m really very young to understand current life situation or how you handlying problems or like that… But I rally don’t understand that How a mom can do like that with her Kid as your mom done with you ( i sorry that i m saying such thing about your mom) As i saw still in my life a mom can die for her kid if any situation come in her life… but after knowing your story a different image of mom come out know. I am sorry but i m really not able to undersatnd that what to say you now. But if any day you like to talk with me you can talk with me. Your most welcome . And you live your life very strongly and i just like to say you that always be strong and live your rest live also as a strong man and show everyone that by alone in this world you can live… and what happened ? why you didn’t marry still or are you don’t have any girl friend now or in past ?
I was religiously abused by my Mother as a child who constantly spoke to me like you. I was an a innocent child! Treated like ****** the anti christ child or Carrie in the films. Go away and leave me alone. You are not helpful at all.
@DeadEagle I did not mean to upset you. That’s why I share a personal testimony. They way I found comfort and purpose, and that is why I share with you.
And you obviously didn't read what I said I am talking about complete isolation. I would never look for a relationship with another person. I am whole. I am talking about socialisation not having needs or expectations of anyone, as I also said I have been independent since the age of fifteen jmar2015.
too tired to night to go into my past (been along day) but in brief I lived in abuse for 44yrs and been in a healthy relationship 9 yrs of my 54 yrs on earth ...........you say 4 yrs alone now...........you do not want to look for a relationship with another person is that in relationship and friendship too? .............what are you then seeking form a support group?............is this your way of breaking the isolation your in to connect with people and your finding you need to find a way then?...........sorry like I said I am overtired here and may have missed something in your replies ......little confused to what your seeking and how to respond ..........I am off to bed here for some well needed sleep
I am not looking for a relationship I was looking for some kind of contact with other people but I see now this is not possible goodbye
@DeadEagle
You have every right to trust issues, and it sounds as though you aren’t seeking advice? When traumatic events occur in ones life, it’s best to isolate oneself “for a time” either emotionally or socially, or both; but not indefinitely! No one here intends to hurt you…perhaps they have different views because he/she has not experienced the same pain, but rest assured we are here to listen!
contact with others is a form of a relationship...........sorry you feel as you do but it is your choose what you do too , no one elses .......if it is not support your seeking just contact what about other groups........I farm so like farm groups ............gives me contact without the personal connection
Ah.. Thank you so much everyone for supporting me so much I feel so much better.