When I was 16 I had my first experience with a girl, unfortunately the situation was forced on me by the guy I was with and it left me very confused. After awhile I felt the need to try it again but on my terms. The second time around I fell in love with the girl and she broke my heart. I thought what we had was more serious but I think to her I was just another toy. Maybe it was just "puppy love" but she really broke my heart. I am 31 now and haven't met any other woman who was interested in me but I dream constantly about it. There is a woman who I've never met that haunts my dreams. She is so loving and compassonate that it makes my heart ache. I long to feel a woman's gentle touch. I know I need to get out and try to meet people but I am so incredibly shy. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think anymore. I'm tired of the longing ache I feel.
Look online for local gay and lesbian bars or just friendly ones, go to gay pride in the bigger city of wherever it is you live, those only happen in summer though, but all age ranges attend these places and you will find there is a much larger community than you realized and will meet many many new friends and possibly that potential partner.