Get me out

Get me out of my own head, get me out of the place where i feel trapped and like no one can hear me calling for help. Its like a drug addict, but no, they have it so much better they have the option of avoiding their drug. But what do i have, what do you do when you need your drug to survive, when you're around it on a daily basis and it is being forced upon you. I thought i was getting better, i thought it was getting easier but here i am again playing these same mind games. It feels hopeless i feel like i am never going to win so why should i continue to try... It feels like a battle that i can not fight. The only thing that gets me through the day is the thought that i can't do it to my mom, i can't let her down and i can't let her see me like that again. I'm looking for a way out but i cant find the door, i can't find the light.

For now.

there is a way out. i brighter future. i promise. I understand how you are feeling. It's really beyond hard to fight sometimes, but you can do it. thinking of you.