Going back to regular high school next year

Mental Health Eating Disorders & Body Dysmorphia
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Hello,

So, my online high school IVe been going to for 2 years got shut down because of the Washington state budget cut. Christine Gregroire first said it would be 15% but in the end, it was over 30% budget cut. It caused all the teachers, the principle and many other faculty to be laid off.

My mom, aunt and I have decided I will go to regular high school next year. Im 18 and will be in 11th grade so, I will be the oldest in my class and the new kid. I wont have any friends but, I will probably make some throughout the year. I dont know though.

The school district office doesnt open till August 4th so, on that day, I will call and will tell them my situation and they have to find a school for me.

My classes will be chemistry, orchestra, track and field, english, geometry and some sort of history. Im excited but scared. I know I will be bullied because Im the new kid and the oldest in my class. Im heavy and the list can go on and on. But, I told my mom I wont worry about being called a snitch because if I tell about someone elses bullying, it may save a life.

When my friend in residential was bullied, I was scared to tell anyone and it led to her suicide. She died at age 15.

My doctor is worried that being on track will bring on my anorexia more. Im not sure though. Im actually worried about it too but, I will make sure it doesnt. It wont look cool for me to go to school one day with a feeding tube up my nose.

Ive not been to regular school since I was like 8. I have been actually but I was in special ed class and it was so boring. This next year, I will be in a regular class. I told my mom and aunt that eventhough I may be crazy, I want to show the world that even crazy people can live a somewhat normal life.

Any advice of what to do from now till then to prepare myself?

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Hi Shasha....I think it's great that you are thinking ahead about how to better prepare for this transition. One thing that might help is if you can find out the daily schedule at the school, and how lunch is handled. If you can come up with a plan ahead of time to make certain that you do eat lunch, and don't isolate, it could be a great part of a relapse prevention plan!
I would recommend also that you meet with your school counselor prior to starting the school year, and find out if this person can introduce you to a few of your peers, prior to starting classes. That way, you won't be the 'stranger' to everyone!
I am excited for you and your new opportunity!
Take care...Jan

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my family has been speaking. Weve decided I will take my classes at the community college to finish high school. My school district office doesnt answer for 2 more weeks but, Im going to look up about their classes. Im not used to being in school all day with classes back to back. So, this may be a better solution. I will be home most of the time for lunch and my ED doctor has raised my requirement for my calorie intake at lunch by 200 calores. I was freaking and OD'd because of it 2 days ago, but, I now know its only to help me. I still feel thoiugh that my doctors are trying to make me fat. Its my paranoid getting to me. And at this school, I will be able to make sure I eat that ammount so I dont get tube fed which almost happened a couple of weeks ago. I dropped a certain big ammount of weight, passed out and went to the ER and they almost tube fed me but, I promised I would eat again. And, I have been. The next day, my doc raised the expectaations. Im going to get a smoothie with my mom today. I hope I can enjoy it, tthats all.

Thanks for the advice,

Sasha