Guys, im really feel more good, i just don't know how the hell i did this! i just all the time, when i remind u know like gay i get this anxiety now, i don't know i just wont let this thought in my head, all the time, i just get this sceard like ur lie ur self, get this thought in ur gay, no no im not gay stop!, i just get that this is not real but still i have lot of spike and stress, now i can controll half from this HOCD, like i can controll alittle bit on my fears, my anxiety, but still this thought in my head wont go!, all the time i see a girl i remind on the sec like, i want to sex with her? i want her? and i know when i will stop thinking about it this will go, but my friend all the time talk about like i want sex with her, im really horny on her and more, this is really broking me, cuz 3-4 month ago, i really felt good and know what they talking about, now im just like **** off for nothing i have on horny feel! i get it i don't want to date with boys, this is sound to me really strange, i don't want kiss a boy and this is really sound to me bad, but still when i see my friend u know i opend to him obssesion, i have this feel and today i get anxiety alittle cuz i saw him and i really want touch him, and now some girl really broke me too cuz she get me inside like if u were a gay u all the time will check and see *** boy, now before she told me this i didn't know about it, and now like all the time i see a *** and check it, and i know this is won't attracted me, like i know i don't like boys, i don't want date or kiss boys, and of curse i don't want to do sexuality things with boys, but still when i see my friends, or friend without shirt, or u know, i still have this feel like im attracted to him or something, not this feel like, i want him or something like this sh** something more like do im attracted to him????????? guys help me this is really broking me, and again i started check a gay porn after 1 week without, and still i **** off on it, but my mind was on girl so this is relax me alittle cuz i can't image my self do it with boys or something u know...
help me! im broking guys, before this HOCD, all the time i talked on girls with opend mind like yea i for sure straight didn't sceard from anything about my sexuality i knew it, my Hetrosexuality born with me, now how the hell i get on this? why just why, like im really like girls so why im thinking about it and all my sexuality atrraction destroyed this is really broking me, now all the time girl sit near me or talk with me, im all the time check if i like her on want her or want do something with her, 3 month ago if girl talked with me i just was happy and no think on nothing u know, this is really broke me please help im think im gone sspike again!
First of all, STOP THE GAY PORN CHECKING. It will only make things worse. Do not masturbate to gay porn, or any porn. Stop your checking for a while. You'll see it helps.
@NicoGZ I know, its really help, like i had a check too see if this is make me something and not, but only one time yes, the second time, i watched it but image my self with girl…