Guys, you know this feel, like guys don't do it to you nothing ( im boy) and really strange and diffrent, and girls more atrracted you, and guys disgusting when u image ur self do sexual with them, but girls u like it more! then boys, but still this is doesn't make u horny like before the HOCD, 3 month ago before the HOCD started, all i wanted is sleep with a girl and kiss her and do sexual things with her!, not i want it do, but this is dosen't attracted me like before, dosen't make me horny like before, and this is really make me spike, i really want to be horny from this like before, and guys, i can't image my self kiss a guy or a model guy or something, or be with him like u know on sexuality and in relationship, and can't image my self saying like i want this guy with abs and good chest and hair like this u know this is really strange for me and Disgusting me, but why can't i be horny like beforee, and im really spike cuz im sceard i will be with girls and my sexuality and my self won't be good, cuz i will not attracted to her and boys yes, and im really sceard im gay, cuz im sceard that boy will sit on my penis( sorry for those words) will..... and if nice girl will sit on me my penis will not, but i know if nice and beatiful girl will want me or something i really will be happy and if nice guy, you know i can't image that guy want kiss me and hug me u know, but i still can't stop think about it, im all the time think im gay or asexual, but most gay, i can't stop think about it, my anxiety for sure little down, but still! this is not leave my mind this is really freaking me out, i all the time say im not gay im sure im not gay, but still i can't stop think about it!!!! and can't get horny like before whyy?????????????????????
Hi, we all suffer the same, and understand how you feel. If you want to understand what is going on, and how to live with it, please watch Eddy Defoe's and Mark Freeman's videos in youtube, and read the articles of Jonathan Hershfield in ocdspecialist.com
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