Has anyone else just felt numb inside to where you don't care about anything or anyone? I've tried to commit suicide twice as a teen, and now that I'm almost 25, it's like I'm just going through motions and I don't know how to snap out of it.
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Have you noticed any common occurences before or during your periods of numbness that might give some clue as to what's triggering it? I experience this only for short periods usually, so it's probably different than what you deal with, but I've noticed that my emotional numbness is often a reaction to high stress beforehand. So I'm trying to keep an eye on that.
Sorry I can't offer something more relevant, but hopefully others can. Welcome to the group, hope you like it here.
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I've been in this state more than once and when I get there, I start doing adrenaline inducing things that may actually be detrimental to my health because to feel something is better than nothing at all. I undertake task with the mindset, "Well, I'll this will kill me." The only way I am able to be brought of it is through social interaction but most times, coming out is the problem because I get blindsided. Do you have anyone you can connect with? Or the possibility of putting yourself in new circumstances and new environments that bring about profound feelings or thoughts?
Will have family but I'm not that close, I have a boyfriend of almost 3 months but I don't want to tell him this. So no not really anyone to count on, I'm the one that helps others and puts others first then when I need help there is no one. I've felt this way for a while now, I've never really been happy my whole life had a hard childhood and so on. So, I don't know what to do to reverse this emptiness, I have to pretty much fake it through life.
I've been where you are many, many times. Ever wonder "why" if you do all the right things for everyone around you that people just keep taking and taking but never return the kindness. It's like people (mostly men) can see that you are a "giver" and they (being takers) just use you up. I am in a relationship right now and I am so lonely and so tired of just giving and giving--yet I am afraid to be alone...
Have you been to counseling or have a therapist? I have found that helps so much because it's someone I can safely unload everything I'm feeling and thinking. I'm sorry you are feeling this way, but there is definitely a purpose for you here. What is something you enjoy that takes the numbness away? Can you spend more time focusing on/doing that?
I have definitely felt what you are feeling, and I've had to pray, counsel and medicate my way out of it, but it has always passed when I do those things and focus on the positives. When I focus on the negative, I just stay in that cycle of not caring. I'll send up a prayer for you, hope these comments help and being on this site can possibly provide the support you need.
@caseyanne
I am new to this site so I am not sure if you were writing to me–but if you were, thank you for caring and taking the time to answer me. Thank you for your prayers. Funny thing is the only time I feel complete and loved and understood is when I go to church. The time just flies and I feel like everything will be okay, until I leave, go home and the cycle starts all over again.
I've tried therapy I went to a few sessions and stopped. I enjoy cooking and art but I tend to be negative and also have had some stuff going on in my life