Haven't heard from my SO in a couple days. I am tired of trying at the moment. I have the mentality right now, that if she wants to communicate, then she knows how to reach me. I am tired of reaching out to her. On a brighter note, my two new books I ordered arrived today..."I Hate You - Don't Leave Me" and "The Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Diary." I already own "Loving Someone With Borderline Personality Disorder." The latter helped me understand a lot.
I found that the idiots guide to BPD helped others understand what I was going through, and gave me some pointers on me too. Get me out of here by rachel reiland also helped start me on my path to controlling myself... Although, I found that reading such also caused behaviors within myself, but I came out better on the other side.
Get Me Out of Here by Rachel Reiland is a fantastic book about BPD. It's written by a lady who went through therapy, really good read I found a lot of comfort in it x