So I had a doctor appointment for me today! I'm trying very hard to stay on top of my fibro and some days are just really ******! Everything hurts, the weather sucks, I don't want to become a pain medicine junky so, I'm not taking pain meds every moment of every day. So I'm sitting in my appointment and the pain in just searing down my legs. I get up and peep my head out the door and sure enough the nurse practitioner comes in and now I feel guilty cause I've gotten things off to a bad start. And I just texted the ex to let him know that thinks are running behind and I might need to make back up plans. He responds with a fu**. So now that I know he's pissed I start copying and pasting phone numbers. By the time the appointment is done everything is fine of course and I say I can do it. Ohh, no it's taken care of. He won't tell me where she is or anything. Luckily, I pay her cell phone bill. I can find her. HE IS SUCH A CONTROLLING ***** AND I AM SO GLAD TO BE RID OF HIM EVEN IF I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO BUY GROCERIES OR PAY RENT!!! I have peace of mind and heart at the end of the day at that is what matters most of all :)
its so liberating when you get to the point where you don't react to the nonsense. i remember the anger of wanting to rip him apart verbally and physically so i understand your outrage. oh yeah he pushed my buttons alright and i was out for bear. i'm so sorry that you have to go through all this hun. your last statement came out of my mouth very similarly but the one thing i remember back then was the relief when i moved out with my daughter and had my own place....scarey yes...but the relief of not living day in day out with that....no words to describe the peace.....i'm here if ya need to chat hun.
Dear Musicspedmom, I loved you being honest in your post about how you feel! Sometimes I too, would love to shout some crap from the highest mountain. Kathy is right, it's SOOOO nice to not be under the same roof and so liberating and yes, I too, wonder sometimes where I'm going to come up with the funds we will need, but still it's better than being held down and degraded for the rest of my life.
You said a mouth full and alot of us can relate!
Hugs, Suzee
and ladies, life can/does get better, of course for me it is now years later and i have a wonderful husband who takes good care of me. we are not without our issues, 99% have been dealt with and there are still some but there is none of that control gargage, no yelling, manipulating oh we have a snip now and again but the last real disagreement we had was about 6 years back, i say that because thats when we sobered up…long story but we have god and each other to fight the good fight of life together and work thru issues that come up. lots of love to you guys!!