Hello everyone! Well, last time I wrote here was August 11th. On the 16th, 17th and 18th I had a couple of beers for each day (total 6 on three days) This time was so weird because I didn't want to do it, but it was like my body and my mind would automatically make me do it; like if you have to go to the restroom and you automatically go without any more thinking because is something you have to do anyways right? So wow! I was in disbelief. Well, I was able to stay alcohol free for almost two weeks. I'm not gonna say "sober" because it didn't even get to that. I felt like if I cheated on a Diet maybe? Well, DAY ONE again :(
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I've been on vacation and drank too. i didn't get wasted like I typically would & feel good about that but wish I hadn't drank so many days. I didn't drink last night or tonight. This is hard but I know it's best.
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@Benny7 Good for you Benny, today is my Day 2 in a row, since I haven’t drink every day, I stop 5 days, then have a beer or two, then I stop another 5 then drink some, I have stayed this year up to 45 days, then drink 2 or 3 days, etc… The bad thing for me by doing this, is that my sugar goes up and down, I am not diabetic, but my blood pressure fluctuates around alcohol. For example, my normal BP is around 73/98 so, sometimes is lower than that and feel dizzy 
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Benny and FPeace ....I find your honesty refreshing!...believe it or not, my favorite meetings have always been a step 1 meeting....they were filled with honesty. Without it, the chances of staying sober are slim...I admire you both so openingly admitting that you drank again...I was the guy, that if I did pick up that first drink again, I would disappear for months at a time, always lucky to make it back alive...I should be dead for the assine decisions I made while I was young...I'm lucky, in 1990, when I ended up in a shelter in upstate ny, never once did I think I'd be sitting here still sober...I thought of drinking all the time for months on end in the beginning....thank god I was dead broke, owned nothing, owed everything, and had no car!...I reached out for help a lot...I ended up hooking up with a guy named Dan C. and he became my friend...he drove me every where to meetings....He had an old Toyota pick up truck....we drove every where...to get to meetings up near the Canadian border, you had to drive 10-25 miles to hit a meeting....I'm blessed where I got sober...small meetings, dead broke, no temptation, and great AA, and even better people up the there!...Benny, the going away and not drinking as much, it's only temporary, until you get back to the old amount...I've tried every trick in the book to try to beat quitting booze for good...id go to a bar after a period of sobriety, and I leave drinking only 5-6 beers...id say, I got this. And before I knew it, I was back drinking like I always drank, everyday...like I've said, quitting drinking was one of the hardest things I ever tried to do, and one of my top life achievements!...and I never thought I could do it...I will stop, because I'm rambling on.
Keep the faith
Irish
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@Irishfighter ,actually I appreciate your rambling and advice. You are also refreshingly honest and always give me something to think about and inspiration. You’re not alone in the "I should be dead Group ". I’m thankful to God that I never got in a wreck killing my self and most importantly,anyone else.
FPeace I just tried to go 2 days and I just had to have a beer now. I'm sweating and feeling mad at myself for not keeping it going longer but I'm not going to drink more and I'm going to go 3-4 days and hopefully longer so keep it up and I'll try and do the same.
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@Kane1990, I know it’s weird but try something sweet ( I craved ice cream) when you’re wanting that drink. A few people here have mentioned that alcohol turns to sugar in the body so our body craves it. which is why the sweet helps. Good job stopping at one, don’t beat yourself up. And I hope you can keep your focus in the coming days.