Hello, i am new to this, but i joined because i know it is what i need, to get some help/advice from people who know how deppression feels and changes you and how lonely the world seems instantly like night and day....ive battled deppression since i can remeber, due to being bullied in elementry school..ive tried many things, therapy, pills, books, going out but it seems to all have temporary effects and i usually get people saying "just smile, its easy"..it is easy but i want my happiness to feel real and long lasting...i hope being here and learning from this group helps long lasting results. Thank you.
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I battle depression as well. I know it feels like your looking through glass sometimes while your drowning and everyone else is living. I don't really have an escape other than exercising and through food which isn't healthy. Sometimes music helps but like you said, this stuff is temporary and it's hard. People can't always understand and sometimes they do and help. It's difficult feeling alone when everyone around you is okay and you don't feel that way at all. I want you to remember that I seriously battle depression every day. Sometimes I isolate myself in my room bc I don't talk to anybody but I am breaking out of it. People worry about me but I don't have the heart to tell them about the battle of my eating disorders causing some of this or my chronic illness causing it bc it doesn't change anything and my family gets frustrated with me bc no matter what they do to try and make me happy, I'm just not. I'm insecure about where I'm going but I know that you are never alone. Welcome to this group!
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@UC_Silver_Linings , wow thank you silver for sharing your story with me, i appreciate it, and im glad you are comimg out to talk about what your really going through. Like you said its hard to go through this when others arent so it seems like a good idea to shut others out but then that affects you more…i used to talk about my issues but i felt like my friends and family got tired of hearing of how dark i feel so i stopped and began to what i think of as “role play” to act like what im not and hide my true emotions, feelings but all that bundle up led to crying bursts that sometimes lasted for hours, and my depression got stronger, so thats why im hear to talk openly and freely. Its good you are talking about it too. Thank you again and take care, im here if you want to talk.
I describe my depression as sitting in the middle of a crowded room begging and pleading for someone to take my hand to help me stand, but they all just turn away like they don't see me. This group, they see me and we see you as well. Welcome
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i also suffer from depression + family problems ..and im also not happy about my look idk what problem is called ..ppl see the appearance of my life and tell me why i am depressed and why am not thankful for what i have ..but i dont know what to answer them . i got the sorrows in my heart that i cant explain and when i do ..they make fun of it . nobody can be in ur shoe and feel what u really feel . sometimes i get mad at myself for being depressed always . i kept suppressing my sadness tryin to be strong but its like i collected them all at once now its like a big icy mountain of sorrows that has frozen in my heart ..when i start to talk about it i cant stop ....
How do you feel like your social skills are normally?
In general i am a friendly person but i can be quiet in a enviroment im not used too or if im having a low day il mostly keep to myself.
Please remember that this is temporary. The level of depression will come and go. You will be okay. <3