Hello.. I don't really know how to start in this support gro

Hello.. I don't really know how to start in this support group but I'm here because I need support so here goes nothing. I began bingeing probably close to two years now. It started right after I moved out from home after high school and I finally had the freedom to do (and eat) whatever I wanted. My mom has always been a health nut and has always pushed it on me. I truly enjoy being healthy and having healthy options but its maintaining that lifestyle that I'm struggling with. I will set a goal to go to the gym and not eat out that week but then I get into this "I'll start tomorrow mentality" and if there is even a slight trigger from commercials, talking to friends, anything I loose control. It's like every good thought that I have that is focused on getting healthy is muted by another, stronger voice. And after that 2 seconds of happiness is pure disgust and embarrassment, I think it's the worst feeling in the world. Almost 2 years down the road I've gained weight, I'm less motivated, and I can't seem to get ahold of this "disorder"... Here are some questions that I have for you all:
1. Do any of you smoke weed? I do and its a huge part of my BE but I can't seem to not buy more (I live in CA and its very accessible).
2. How have you all made the first steps in quitting?
3. Do you trust any of your friends/family to talk about your BE with? I'm so embarrassed of my actions that I find this extremely difficult.
4. Has anyone tried any medication to help with BE?

Hei :) so First have to say i exactly know how you Feel! Quittung is a Very Hard think ... i started to search something i love so much that binging doesn t Seems so Important anymore... and yes you Should totally talk with your family and friends ... i did it and it s so good when you did it ... a eating disorder is so Common nowadays and if they really love you they won t jungde you because of this and will help you to beat this **** :p i am in Therapie and it really helps ... so if you need to talk with someone just write me a Message ! And good Luck !!!

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Hey man, I'm in exactly the same boat as you, new to the support thing just knew it needed to happen. I'm a big gym goer but it's the eating I can't control, it's a comfort thing I guess, but since moving out I've gained a stone. NOT cool. I'm a weed smoker too (though probably not as much... harder to come by in the UK) and I find that tackling the munchies with fresh berries not only keeps the calories down, it solves the munchies and actually makes the high better in my opinion (flooding your body with good stuff I suppose). I'm embarrassed too. I'm a total secret eater, to the extent that my friends are confused as to why I am the size I am. I don't know what to do about it, but look how many people are here, to help each other. That's pretty awesome, and makes me feel a lot better. I hope it does you too. Hopefully we can all find some solutions and help each other out :)

@Finn_4444 really good to know someone is feeling the same as me. Eating berries is definitely a good option that I'll start doing. Thanks again, reading your comment made me feel better about this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. xx