Hello. I'm new at this. Being a single mom 4 years and can'

Hello. I'm new at this.
Being a single mom 4 years and can't seem to get over my depression of me and my ex separate. I was sleep walking for 13 years of marriage, and trying to be the perfect wife. And somewhere I lost myself, my happiness. My ex is military and that was a hard life. But moving has been really hard for me and find myself is so hard I don't know where to start. I try to keep my self busy, but nothing is helping. I'm tried of feeling this way. My kids need the old me. Happy. Please help me.

hello im single mom and my ex was in the military also i know what your going through :(

I'm 44, and I'm not getting younger. I need to find my self again