Hey,
I'm a new member, really looking for some support- man oh man has this whole thing gotten tough.. allow me a moment to explain-
last December I stopped eating and went from 130 lbs to 110lbs (at 5"8"). I've always been health conscious but this was something new entirely (especially considering how much I LOVE food)
around February I started to binge eat and purge, became vegetarian (on and off of course), stole roommate's candy/ food when they were gone and the entire cycle spiraled out of control
Two weeks ago I explained the situation at hand to my mom, and since being back in college, the dorms, binge eating/purging and laxative abuse has increased beyond whatever I thought was imaginable.
I'm trying to find a specialist as well as a nutritionist, and I've started to eat 6 mini meals through the day and I exercise everyday- at least once. my meals are only 100 calories but if I eat anything more, I bust out of control. I'm bloated, drinking bazillions of gallons of water whenever i can but..
I'M DEATHLY AFRAID OF GAINING LBS but I know its because of the underlying issues of course. I just can't bare the idea of gaining weight- and of course since eating 6 meals and drinking my body weight in water, at this moment, I weigh 105 and binged on dried apples and had 2 Special k bars that I stole from my roommate. luckily it stopped there but it had been 6 days since my last binge and now I'm scared, lonely, and feeling HUGE