Well, let's see here... I've been bulimic for two years now. It tears my girlfriend to pieces, so I'm trying SO hard to stop, but she wants me to quit cold turkey. I just can't do that. She said I can't self harm in any way possible, but it's SO **** HARD. I'm sure the rest of you that are going through recovery know what I'm talking about. I can't just quit. I feel... empty, I guess, without pain. Without control. You know? But, I can't afford to hurt her anymore. I've done it too much for too long. She means the WORLD to me. It kills me when I hurt her over my selfish vices. I just need support from someone who understands what I'm going through. She doesn't understand. Just.. what can I do to stop? Please, help me..

Hey Danger,
Welcome to Support Groups. I hope you will find the support that you need here to help you.

Are you receiving any professional support at the moment? I have had an ED for around 15 years and the advice i would give anyone is to get help early which is what you are doing by writing here. Support groups, counsellors or therapists who specialise in helping people with eating disorders may be best placed to help you.

2 years is some time but it does not have to be the rest of your life. I always read that the earlier people seek treatment, the easier it is to come out of it. I think that if i had got help early on, it may be easier for me now. I did have a period where i was not binging and purging, about 10 years into the ED so i believe it is never too late.

Is there anyway that you can help your girlfriend understand the difficulties in simply 'quitting'? Through books or through the internet??

Please keep writing. I look forward to reading more from you.