I go home everyday and drink. I am so tired of the booze controling my life. Was sober for over 24 years, now after 2 years back at it. I found this group this morning.
Hi JimD, Welcome to SupportGroups.com . What did you do during those 24 years you were sober? Did you go to AA http://www.aa.org/ ? Either way, I suggest going to a meeting. If not AA, then you can check this link http://alcohol.supportgroups.com/sg/alcohol/non-12-step-programs for non 12 step groups. Take it one day at a time. Just for today - don't drink. Keep coming and sharing with us. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))
Thank for your support. I need to chat with folks who understand. Yes, I did go to AA for a year. Felt great!!
I want control of my life, as now once again the booze is doing it. Thank you!
Hi Jim, You can get your life back by taking tiny baby steps to get there. Go to a meeting. You don't have to say anything. You can just listen. Take it one day at a time. Just for today - don't drink. Keep us posted on how you are doing. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))
This site has been a big help to me. Keep coming back, there are great people here. God bless you Jim and good luck.
Obviously you found out that it doesn't get any better out there Jim, nobody ever does. I can't tell you what to do, only advise as you know, and you know that I'm going to suggest you go back to AA meetings and stick with them don't you? Also, may I suggest that you are indeed at the moment controlling your own life? What happened to handing it over in the mornings? Each morning I hand my life over to MY God, Higher Power, and I choose not to drink alcohol for today. I did this yesterday, today and I will do tomorrow, all these days mount up as you know.
I'm so sorry you lost those 24 years but I wish you all the best for the start of the next sobriety and hope it lasts for you.
Good luck Jim
Glen
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I want to thank you folks for your kind support. This is truly a very hard road in life. I just do not understand?
Life was great for those 24 years, right on a natural high flying.
What makes things even worse, I am a professional educator!
May God bless each and everyone of you.
Hya Jim,
There’s nothing TO understand really hun…Alcohol has no boundaries or preferences as to whom it takes as hostage nor when. I have to be on guard all the time against it, I cannot afford to get complacent about my sobriety…In order to do that I go to meetings regular (twice a week) minimum, I keep in daily contact with someone in AA. There seems to be some sort of ‘magic’ in the room of a meeting that boosts my sober batteries, and I need that re-charge.
Have you been to a meeting yet this time Jim? Believe it or not…We ARE interested in how you are, so please
keep coming back and let us know how you are doing with your
personal battle…
Today I chose NOT to drink
Glen
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I Jim, sounds real frustrating. I'v been lucky on one hand, and not on the other, I have drank alcoholicy occasionally in my life, but have always been able to walk away from it. But I married an Alcoholic, who makes me crazy, and as far as he's concerned its my fault.
So what changed, to make you want to go back to drinking 2 yrs ago?
I would like to share please, as you brought up a good question. I was married for 27 years to the first wife, she found a new love, she started drinking before we separated. She got so bad that she would stay with an old female friend over night. I never picked up the stuff nor had the urge during that whole mess. Remarried 5 years ago and the wife liked a drink ever so often and told me one would not hurt me. Well, that was wrong and I do not blame her for what I did. I pray every day to put this all behind me, and move on in life with out it.
Thanks for listening.
I sympathise with you JimD. I am in more or less the same boat, though I didn't have anywhere near as long a period of sobriety. I am a newcomer here on this forum too. All the best mate.
Welcome Scottish Jim! I am also a newcomer and have found fellowship and support here. Good luck to you; hopefully the scary part will end soon and will be replaced with joy.