So been dependent my whole life on people, thats whats made me feel safe. Now depending on my mind, it feels alone, and its quite dangerous with almost brinks of harm, self harm. Which I must be sad to admit have indulged in do to my view on myself, and worth. Hmm, this is not going to go away very easily, and need a healthy solution to get past my own dark negativity that lunks.
Hi aimeemay, that must be hard when you are switching from having lots of dependence on people to being independent. it feels like loosing love, care and attention from others and seems like yourself don't worth anything and can't do anything. I've been there too. I felt very vulnerable and alone and it seems like no body can help me at all that i'm stuck. My suggestion is to honor yourself in doing what you are doing and feeling glad that you are able to do that. Having a courage to share your experience is already an act that worth acknowledgement and. You definitely worth being here and you don't have to feel compared with other people. You are normal and you have the ability to do things both independently and dependently. Hope you feel better :)
I am somewhat, mind has to click to adjust, like always.