i dont know what to do. i have been an asshole for the last three years and now i have no friends.
have you talked to your doctor? i wasnt a very nice person when i wasnt on medication. i suffer from depression and bipolar. it took me a long time to realize that i wasnt being so nice. one good thing is you are realizing something isnt right so thats a step to hopefully something better. i would talk to a therapist or a doctor about whatever it is that is bothering you and causing you to do the things you do, maybe they can help. im sorry your losing your friends but maybe if you get well you can tell them your sorry and that your trying to do better. if they are real friends they will understand.