Dear Herion ..**** you.. It makes me sick to think of what you did, running through his veins like a toxic poison making him think you were good to him when all you wanted to do was slowly kill him from the inside out. Destroy his mind, body, and soul. You made a beautiful person ugly from the inside out...sucking the life from his eyes. I used to look at his arms and think they were sexy, veins running through them, now they disgust me i will never look at veins the same. You took my best friend away from me and made him lie to me ...something i held like glass in my hands, never wanting to break..you shattered it into a million different pieces and for that
Hello Healing,
I too hate heroin. I'm so sorry for what this drug has done to your best friend. I just found out 2 days ago that my 21 yr old daughter is an addict. I had absolutely no clue. Im so devastated that all I've been able to do is cry.
I drove her to a hospital to detox, she wanted to go and it broke my heart to watch her be so sick. How could this have happened? We've always been so close. How could I not have seen any signs?
I don't know what to do, say, or feel. I'm so lost.
I am so very sorry to hear about your daughter. I just found out tonight that my brother is addicted to heroin. I am devostated too. He used to be a fireman and and EMT. He became addicted to pain pills after a surgery he had and then it spriraled down from there. I feel I have lost him. I am trying to read about people who have recoverd and what has helped them. I pray for god’s help.
Hey guys,
I have not suffered, thank God, from anyone who has suffered from the hands of heroin. I had a cousin who overdosed and died on esctacy a few years ago. So I know the destruction drugs can cause to a family.
Healing, I am so sorry you lost your friend. Is he getting help?
And Ihtheroin...I think you should start going to support meetings for those who suffer with family members who suffer from this. They teach you how to cope with the member and also how to cope with your feelings.
It is such a positive sign that your daughter went for help, so if you must cry, cry in joy that she is getting help. And you must look after yourself too, during this time.
I will pray for you both.
Love to you
Moongal x
Moongal, I’m so sorry for the loss of your cousin. It had to be devastating. I am very happy that she wanted help and went. I’m fearful of what will happen when she gets out. Will she be strong enough to stay clean? I’m jus so filled with so many emotions that its overwhelming. When all this went down, my husband was all the way cross country and I had to deal with it on my own. I have Bipolar Disorder and am usually very stable and am afraid this will trigger me into an episode. Then what use will I be to her. It’s caused such a big mess. That’s why my screen name is I ht (hate) heroin.
Thanks for your reply. I appreciate it.
I hate the drug as well. It took hold of my only son and has turned him into someone I don't know anymore. Someone who can't be trusted, who lies and steals. He ended up in the ER three days ago with an overdose. Says it has opened his eyes, and says he can beat this drug himself. I want so badly to believe that but my heart tells me otherwise. I am so sad and confused right now.
Need more faith, noone could have said it better than you did, please keep in mind that there are reasons within him though that he'd choose that road in life & cincrand follow your gut instincts, your probably correct, the answers are within.
All my strengths
April
cincrand,
my heart goes out to you. I'm new to all of this, but I know I hate this drug already. Maybe when your son gets out of the hospital he will go to na meetings. You & your son are in my thoughts.
Thank you for all your kindness. It feels wonderful to have some type of support - need more...
No NA meetings for him at this point in time, but I have talked him into seeing a therapist. Maybe that will help down the road. Will also be going to therapy to try to help myself.
This is just all so new (even though I knew he was doing the drug for a while). Always said that it would be his last (dumb me for believing it).
I pray for each and every one of you going through the same thing. It really sucks.
Cincrand,
I’m only new to this as I’ve said, it’s only been a week and a half for me. I’ve attended a parents support group, and 2 NA meetings (OST) and it has helped me a lot. Not enought, but a lot. Have you tried that yet?
Ihtheroin - Not yet. Have one coming up on Tuesday that I'm going to attend through one of the local rehab places. We don't have Nar Anon in our area so it was suggested that I go to Al Anon. Can I ask how old is your daughter and what prompted her to finally go into rehab?
cincrand, my daughter is 21. she told us that she had planned on going into the hospital next month because she had just had enough. she wasn’t getting high off of it anymore, she was using for maintanence and she never had money. She was going to go into a treatment on charity care, even though we have ins. because she didn’t want us to find out. Now all that sounds good, and before all of this, I would have believed her. I had never had any reason to not trust her. What happened was, she and 3 friends went to another town to buy, and they were caught and arrested. Thank goodness, my husband is a cop. She asked the aressting cop if he was gonna tell her father. He said, I don’t have to because you are 21. But after working with your father for 17 years, I have respect for him and YES I am going to tell him. That’s how he found out. I’m sorry, I’m rambling. I hope I answered your question.
Oh Ihtheroin - I so hope your daughter ends up okay. I think my son is starting to think that maybe Narcotics Anonymous or Rehab might do him some good. I hope so... need to get him to a counselor or doctor soon to help him make that decision and all the specifics surrounding it. Until then I'm keeping very close tabs on him.
Cincrand,
You're in my thoughts. Has your son gone to any meetings yet? Once there he can meet others and hopefully build up a support buddy system for himself. People he can call when he has the urge to use. I've seen my daughter make these calls already. (or at least that what she tells me)
How are you holding up? Me...not doing so well. I guess I'm still in shock. I cry an awful lot these days.
The Parent Support groups are really helping.
Ihtheroin - He hasn't gone to any support groups yet, but he will soon. It's been one week now (today) since his OD. At first he wasn't open to it, but I think he's reconsidering. Monday will be his 21st birthday. Such a burden to bear at such a young age... I am holding up okay right now. Wasn't at first... Don't like the fact that this has changed my life forever, but I'll do anything for my son. I have my first appointment with a therapist this morning. If he has words of wisdom I will pass them on to you as soon as I can.
I agree about the support groups and REALLY appreciate your concern.
cincrand, I totally agree with you about them being so young. My daughter turned 21 in April. I keep thinking how these should have been the best years of her life.
I hv finally found a good therapist & just being able to let it all out has been so good for me. It’s only been a week and a half since all of this happened, and I’ve been reading and reading up on it. I guess up to the point of overload. My therapist suggested I stop reading so much right now. It’s just that I knew nothing about heroin and as a mother felt I needed to know everything to work on helping her. My therapist said, I need to step back and let her step forward in order to recover. (so hard to do, but I’m tryin’.)
Can I ask what state you are from? I’m from NJ.
Ihtheroin - sorry for the late response. My therapist recommended my son get an assessment at a local drug rehab and I think he's open to it. He has to make the call though so I'm hoping this morning he can get something scheduled. I think I will like my therapist too. Nice to have someone to talk to who you know isn't judging you or your family, but just wants to help.
No heroin now for 9 days, but he still wants to smoke pot. Even though I know it's not healthy, if that's all he does I'm happy at the moment. We have a family therapy session next Thursday- unfortunately hubby can't attend - he needs help too.
I live in Michigan
cincrand, no need for apology. It’s good that’s he open to the suggestion, the more he’s open to, the better. That’s what I’m hearing from the groups I’ve been attending. I’ll keep my fingers crossed.
9 days clean, good for him…it’s 15 for my daughter. I hope they both do well. You’re son is in my thoughts. My daughter’s name is Ali. What’s your son’s name?
I’m going to start thinking positive and maybe the positive energy will wear off onto her.
Try and be strong for you and him.
Someone very close to my heart has and does suffer with heroin addiction. I can't even begin to explain my detest for that drug. It turns the sweetest people into liars and monsters. I've spent years trying to figure out a way to help but there is nothing I can do. It consumes people. It's such a scary thing.
I hear ya’ July!!! Hopefully, my daughter and Cincrand’s son are gettin’ help early enough and can stay clean. They have to want it, we can’t do anything that they don’t want. My daughter wants it and so far, even tho’ it’s early, has been very compliant with her program.
I will keep your someone special in my thoughts.