Hey guys, I've just got to a point where I don't know anymore!
I know I have always been straight and liked guys - Hocd, and I know I has always loved being a girl - Tocd. But now it's like I've just turned lesbian and I will turn transgender! I am not getting a lot of anxiety and I have lost my fear for both themes of ocd! Anyone else?
I've just watched the famous youtuber coming out as gay, I didn't relate to anything she said, but I cried so much. I felt like that's what I wanted - is this ocd? And I just felt like maybe I am! It's like I could maybe enjoy being a lesbian!
But what bugs me is that my hocd seemed a lot worse than my tocd! I had a lot more anxiety with hocd and A LOT more fear, but I've hardly had any with tocd, is this because it's real? Is there such thing as mild ocd?
I honestly don't know what I enjoy, I don't think I can ever be who I was no matter how hard I try! Sometimes I think back to who I was and really miss it by then I think I might be in denial of it all! Maybe I never had ocd, of ocd hard turn me like this?
You sound exactly like what I had a year and a half ago! I had exactly the same thoughts! I know it isn't "good" to reassure someone with ocd as it goes over our heads a lot of the time but I'm just gonna go ahead and say this is as sure a sign of HOCD as it comes. I know it sucks :/ I got over it for a long time but now I'm in a relapse hence why I'm back on this website :( ugh
Thank you for replying! It's just upsetting to think I was happy how I was and I might have changed! TOCD and HOCD, are both on my mind all day - apart from when I'm distracted! I miss being able to love being a girl and love dreaming and fancying boys! How did you get over it for a while? And in that time did you gain your attraction back to the opposite sex and did you forget about the doubts? @lasttryorimdone982