Hey! I just would like to ask if there is any connection between HOCD and sexual maturation disorder?
I was searching on the Internet different kinds of information about sexual disorders, crisis, questioning and I found a big section on Wikipedia.
I wish You all for now to be brave in this battle.
It's hard to have HOCD and especially if suddenly TOCD comes with it and you start loose your identity. But funny thing is if you keep yourself busy, natural feeling comes back...but then comes other questions like: "Why do I think this way? Maybe society, environment made me think about myself this way".
But I don't care, I want to come back to this peace that I had before!
And these pictures of future that earlier was suppose to look so beautiful.
Sometimes I imagine myself that I rebel against all my values and begin circle of experimentation with my gender and sexuality, but in the same time I don't want to hurt myself and want my simplicity of thinking and normal life back.