Hey there. My therapist said I should talk to someone who understands what I've been through since I won't talk about this with him. I've never really told anyone this, but my brother did things to me. I never really realized that they were wrong until just recently (most of these happened when I was like 8, I'm 16 now). He would get in the bath with me when I told him I was uncomfortable, we were too old to be taking baths together. He would get hard and stare at my body. When we were in the car he would take my hand and put it over his d*ck. I would feel him get hard and I would try to pull my hand away, but he just held on tighter. I feel so disgusting because I never said no, I never told him that I didn't want that. I thought it was just normal, maybe a little weird, but it was okay. I freaked out the first time me and my boyfriend were intimate, I had a panic attack, my skin was crawling, I felt like it was him that touched me. I feel even worse because what happened to me wasn't that bad. He never touched me, he did not rape me, but I'm so bothered by these small things. Anyways, thank you for reading this.
What a horrible thing to have to go through, but I am proud of you for being here and being in therapy!
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@CKBlossom I appreciate that, thank you!