I'm new to this group. I have decided to reach out because I have never belonged to a support group for BPD. I feel very empty and alone almost all the time. I am 33 and was diagnosed with BPD when I was 23. Most of my therapies have failed. I don't necessarily believe in labeling people because it creates a negative stigma especially with BPD. I try really hard and always make a good first impression, but it never lasts. I can't tell you how many jobs I have had that ended in disaster. relationships are even more problematic for me, they all start out great, and then my lack of self and self esteem take over and all hell breaks loose. I lose myself in the man I am with at the time.it's so frustrating and depressing not knowing who you are, and then almost figuring it out and then feeling like a loser and worthless..so I am happy to have found a support group for those of you who suffer like me..Lately I feel like I'm numb or a zombie just trying to make it through each day.
Tara Welcome to SupportGroups.com your being very brave in sharing w/others out there about what your dealing with and I'm hopeful you'll continue to stay & share your experiences w/others as this will shed light on the subject & in turn others will know their not alone too. We're here listening to you & your not alone as this disorder is like one step forward & two back from my understanding (my husband of 20yrs. has this & many more disorders).
All my strengths friend & keep posting.
April
Tara, I know exaxtly how you feel. BPD and the things that go along with it has cost me several jobs and relationships......I am on meds for this: Lamictal and Celexa and Clonazepam.
I can't say if the meds are working. I still have sever outbursts of emotions - I'm either extremely happy, or extremely mad, or upset, or crying, or feeling empty and lost...can anyone relate?
I am 27 and was just dx'ed. I feel exactly like you and do not have any clue what to do about it. All I can say is that you are brave, you have been diagnosed for several years and you are still here and kickin. I have been for 3 days and feel like I am losing it. You are a stronger woman then you think, I am sure. I hope that everything works out for you. I really do. I hope you find a therapy that works. I am terrified of therapy, so, the fact that you have continued to try to find something that works is amazing to me and makes me look up to you bc of your strength.
yeah, im new here too, im 23 and have been diagnosed and on meds since im 15. wow that is a long time, i am a mother of a 2 year old and i work and am in school.i am looking to find people i could connect to. on the outside i appear to be a "normal" healthy functioning person, but inside i crumble from my low self esteem, identity crisis and fear of abandonment.
I have burned out in many jobs and relationships as well. I know just what you mean. Even here on this site, I think there are a number of people who don't want to hear from me ever again. Like you, I feel like there have been times when I have come so close to making something really good happen in my life, but I don't realize that people are not responded well to me, that my BPD has already undercut me. Not only is it frustrating, but it keeps me sad and unattached so much of the time. I wish you well with working on it, and if you want someone to talk to, look me up.