Hi, I have been stealing lil stuff since my mom passed away i dont know why i do it i just do it. I never stole anythin big..mostly pens. pencils etc but recently i started stealing some tips from my coworker and i feel awful i scared that im gonna get caught but i cant stop. I think one of my coworkers might have seen me doing it she kinda threatened me saying im gonna tell so and so whats goin on with the disappearing money she doesnt like me at all and now im really scared. I have nobody to support me and i need help. What can i do??
Hi there and welcome, I am so sorry for your loss. For sure it sounds as though the loss of your mother has triggered you. It might be helpful to have a conversation with your co-worker explaining what you are going through and desire for help. If your co-worker has some context to what is happening with you they might be in a better disposition to help you out. Following through with this though, getting some individual therapy to help process the grief, as well as help curb the urge to steal can go far in showing your desire, and follow through to get help. There are places where you can get low cost, to free therapy. Many universities that have counseling programs have clinics where students are under supervision by professors (much like a residency program) many of these programs offer services for free. Non for profits as well offer reduced fare services.
Above all, please try to take care of yourself, and make self care a priority...Sending hugs and support to you. We are here for you.
@Aura82
Thanks Aura. The only problem with this particular coworker is that we dont get along at all if she had proof of anything she would have turned me in already. if i say anything like that to her shell for sure tell my boss and then im done. I had therapy when i lost my mom with treatment of anxiety attacks n epilepsy that i got let go because technically then went away. I had stopped thinking of stealing for a looong time but recently the urge started again. It feel like it is mostly when im anxious about something. Ill try to research a place close by for some therapy about this. Today i had a whole day of work and didnt even look at the money inside the tabs. I think ignoring the object helped a lot. Nobody said anything about the other girl so i think she didnt say anything to anyone yet. I hope she doesnt because ill never do it again n i really need this job.