Hi, I was hoping from some support from people who understand what I'm going through. I have a diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder and recurrent depression. I have a boyfriend who cares about me and loves me, a couple close friends…and I hate myself and think I'm the ugliest person on the planet. People can tell me I look okay but I have anxiety attacks just looking in the mirror. I'm obsessed with looking in the mirror but not because I think I look pretty. I just constantly need to analyze and fix my appearance, mainly my face, stomach, arms, and thighs. I am on the low side of the normal weight range but sometimes I feel very fat. I was hoping to find someone to talk to for support. I see a therapist but lately it hasn't been enough.
Please don't look at me;
I have worked with a lot of models, some very physically pleasing people, only to find out that once I got to know them, they where ugly people. I found that sometimes I enjoyed the company of the people who came with the model.
Your beauty doesn't come from the package, it is what is inside that is important. I know it has been said to you before, "beauty is only skin deep" but there is a lot of truth to that.
Does your boyfriend think you are attractive? Trust those who know you best. If those who love you and know you, see you as attractive, it is because they see all of you. .. hang in there.
@Pleasedontlookatme, I appreciate your struggle, but only because I experience the same things. Don't worry you're not the ugliest person on the planet, I am hah. I've always had the hardest time when people say beauty is on the inside...who someone is on the 'inside' is extremely important, no disputing that, but to pretend that physical appearance doesn't play a major role in our lives is totally bogus. Sounds like your struggle with the mirror is hellish...I myself was trapped in front of the mirror for the last two hours trying to 'fix' my face, hair, etc. I feel like my mind has run a marathon and has nothing left to give for the day and it's only 3pm! Let's chat if you feel like venting or sharing ideas