Well, i think i finally hit rock bottom this weekend. as i mentioned, i stayed in slept the whole weekend. when i was'nt sleeping i was crying.
when i woke up today, i was still crying. i looked and felt horrible. i called my doctor for an emergency appointment. thankfully she saw me. i also have depression so she up my meds to see if that helps me. I did'nt go to work today. i was in no shape to this morning. After my doctor's appointment i went to a friends house and spent the entire afternoon over there. We talked and she made good points and the point most of all was get out of your bed and do something! Don't let yourself do that again, its no good for you and will make you feel worse. of course she is right.
so.....when you hit rock bottom, the only way out is up :)
There comes a time in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, & who always will. So don't worry about the people from your past, because there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
Sing it loud and proud Heather! LOVE your epiphany and love that you pulled yourself out of that moment. It takes so much inner strength to do so, that in combination with the help of your friend got you to such a positive point. It's so easy to hole up and hide, but takes so much strength to get yourself up and out. I am so happy for you. You are such a brilliant example to all of us as to how it is so possible to make it through a difficult time and come out of it better and stronger than ever before.
It really is such a bad place, ugh! Though once you get out and away from it, you swear you will never ever go there again. My last heartbreak was a rough one, and I vowed to never allow myself to feel that pain again. I think you also learn from every experience, most especially the painful ones, so I am making a strong commitment to not repeat any of my past mistakes.
I think being here has helped me so much and I really do appreciate everyone here so much. Thank you for being here heather and for sharing your feeling and words of wisdom.
Just letting people know. I will be off forum for 5 weeks cause my therapist wants me to work on myself only. I told her I like the forum and it helps me but they suggested not for now. Since it is an intensive outpatient program and I put myself in and am paying alot of money and need the help and almost went inpatient, I am taking their advice. So I will be back in 5 weeks or so. Take care everyone and I will do the same for myself.
Heather,
So glad you spent sometime with a friend and just took sometime out of the house. So what if you missed a day of work, if you were in no fit state you probably would have had to go home early anyway.
But I am so glad you feel so much more positive about everything, so good to hear...and it is true what you say there is a time when you do realise who matters and who never did. That is so right on the money.
Keep doing what you're doing girl
Love to you
MG x
Hey Heather,
Today has been a good day for me. I was extremely busy all day. And when i finally came home and laid to go to sleep, a wave emotions suddenly struck and I cried and cried, but it's ok they were good tears. And I actually feel relieved after them.
I have to let go of what I am carrying and one of the best ways is through tears.
I am so glad to hear of your positivity, you are an inspiration...truly.
It's great to hear when someone starts to truly empower themselves.
Moongal, I am so happy to hear that you had a good busy day and your tears were a great release of emotions which it seems that you really needed to get out. Last time I went through heartbreak I sat with my mom and cried cried and cried. I woke up the next morning super drained but felt that I finally released pent up emotions. The drained feeling is when the true healing began and everyday was easier and easier.
I know that you are on your way to healing in such a positive and wonderful way. I am always here to listen, so please keep sharing.