I've been suffering from HOCD for a while now, since july 2010. It tortured me and really messed me up until I came across this website and found similar people to me about two weeks ago. Since then, it's kind of left me alone for a while because I feel reassured that i'm normal and that i'm not actually gay. Now however, i'm a little bit apprehensive that it'll come back, even though I know where I stand. I feel too scared to go and get therapy because it just seems like such a daunting process and it scares me a fair bit.
I want to know, do these thoughts constantly get to you unless you get therapy? Or will they go away?
Hi, sorry for my poor english Im not a native speaker but I'll try to help you, 'cause I've HOCD, too. and It sucks.
let me tell you that the information is the best defense to beat the disease.
I was very bad last week but I had faith that I would overcome my problem, and it was very positive.
the first thing is that you're not gay or bisexual im sure about this, because gay people know about their condition, they know that they like people of their same sex and the thoughts or dreams about having sex with them are pleasant. gay people are aware of their condition and they feel sad for the reactions of family and friends.
try no to check looking at pictures to know if you like them or not because you're gonna get used to your mind to respond to those stimuli. YOU KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT GAY but you try to check it, I got u...it's a ****, that's the hocd!
you can try some techniques but if u get therapy u'll be better
melany
Hawthorns, therapy has been helpful for me, because it's an embarrasing subject and hard to talk about. I can trust that my counselor won't judge me or tell anyone. For me, the FEAR is what feeds the illness, so facing it is important.
OCD has to do with a chemical imbalance in the brain which causes these obsessive thoughts. So if you're open to it, taking medication could help your symptoms.
I went back on Zoloft recently which I believe is helping me.
I may have to consider therapy =/
Before, i could just deal with it until it went away for a while. But recently it's been getting so bad that it seems literally real.
Hawthorns,
I can understand you. This Friday I've been very very bad, I was so depressed so i couldn't stop of crying over and over again, I thought that it wasn't the HOCD and it was real, but I know that it isn't real. the hocd is very powerful but you must to be more stronger than it.
I'm gonna try therapy this wednesday with a pshychologist who is focus on OC.
please let me know how you've been, i'll be here for u if you need anything.
take care
melany
I know I can understand you, well...look
you musn't looked at gay porn 'cause I read that this won't help you, this will do the opposite: you (maybe)will get excited and You'll be confused because of the hocd, this will confused you
sometimes I feel that it's real, i dont know, sometimes I think this is not the hocd and Im repressing it, so It freaks me out and i want to be dead, it's a torture
cause I remember when i was a child I looked at a woman on tv and I feel an excitement 'cause of her perfect body, so Im confussed now but my aunt said me that she passed through the same situation and my mom said me the same thing, too.anyway it freaks me out, so I'll tell the psychologist my situation, if she says: oh it's normal, ok...I'll forget the situation
well look, Im going to send you my facebook and my mail, i would like to help u and you can help me, too
take care
you're strong and you'll overcome this