How am I? In pain. Physically & emotionally. At a very low point in my relationship with my husband & yearning for good friendship, support. I'm so angry with everything &the hopelessness I feel right now. I know this feeling will fade and another will take its place, but right now, it's loneliness, helplessness, frustration & anger that's ruling the roost!
Hello My dear. It's great to hear from you. I miss you. And I'm sorry you aren't in a good place. I'm here if you need me
@Gone Fishing Thank you! I’m glad that on a site that hosts thousands who probably feel or have felt what I do, ONE of you cared enough to respond! This means a LOT! Truly appreciate it!
@Phoenix72, know that you are never alone. I'm glad that you posted so that you could know that. I'm also thankful that you recognize that there will be better days. Still, being in the place you are right now is hard. I see that you posted this two days ago. How are you feeling today?
@NevaMae99 Thank you for your message. When one lives with an emotional abuser, there really are no better days. Just newer hurts. The cage is still a cage. Thankfully, meds help with physical pain.
I'm so sorry that you are in a place of physical and emotional pain. I'm glad that you're finding some relief from the physical pain with proper medications. The emotional pain is tough though. I'm sorry that I didn't see your post sooner to let you know that you are as alone as you feel. Are you involved in any community activities? I know that when I get to a group fitness class at the YMCA I feel better - maybe it's the endorphins that flow through my body or maybe it's just the feeling of being with others but it always helps. I also like to see what's going on at the library, at least at my library there always seems to be some type of "class" or support group going on. Do you belong to a church? The support I get from my church family is some of the most valuable. Hope these suggestions help and I'll be keeping you in my prayers for relief and release from your cage.
@backtonormal thanks for your message. I am bed bound mostly, unless I walk a few steps to relieve myself. I haven’t been out of the house for anything other than a doctor’s appointment for the past 3 years. So, no fitness classes for me. I can barely type without my fingers hurting.
No, I’m not a part of any church. I understand what you mean though. It would be nice to have such support. I used to love going to the library when I was still driving & moving around 5 years ago. Now, I can’t…I wish for many things but life has a way of slapping my face & waking me up from dreams!
Hello my dear friend. I miss you and I love you. It's just a coincidence I'm on. I haven't been for months. But I'm glad to see you around. And I'm sorry you aren't feeling better.
Thank you for reaching out. Talking about what you are going through is one of the most helpful things you can do. If it fades and always comes back there is a cycle that needs to be broken. I read some of the messages you wrote and thought this book might be helpful for you....its called Mending the Soul by Steven Tracy. There is also another book called Love is a Choice Robert Hemfelt. Please know I am praying for you -Rachel
@Rachel2535 Thank you! Appreciate it