How am I? That is a very loaded question for me to answer ri

How am I? That is a very loaded question for me to answer right now. A couple weeks ago I had my index finger amputated and it still very hard for me. Most of the times I feel defeated and most of all I feel guilty because it’s my fault that I lost half of my index finger, and still I’m crying and the guilt that I feel because it could’ve been prevented if I would’ve followed up with all my doctors I wouldn’t have left my index finger. I know the condition has spread to my left hand Claire told me today they may be looking that I might lose my phone because the bruising it’s spreading down but hopefully we don’t get there. If anybody has any advice please I need somebody to talk to

Lost my left hand index finger 9 months ago - was my fault.... you cannot fight what is, accept the fact the finger is gone. I have replayed the accident a hundred times in my mind, the outcome is always the same, the finger is gone. I now do not allow my mind to go to the accident and rethink what, why and how it happened. None of us would choose this but it is what it is.

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Left index and left pinky amputee for many years, awkward at first, but as time goes on you will learn to do anything without even giving it much thought. Hang in there!

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