I'll try not to ramble but here goes:
When I was nine my Dad left and since then everything has gone down hill. I was never really fat but I was chubby and I was forever trying to diet and lose weight. When I was thirteen, last summer, I started getting really obsessive. I restricted my calorie in take to about 700 calories a day and at my worst i was on 200. I lost about 16 pounds in about six or seven weeks and dropped to 112.5 pounds. After that I started trying to get better. I manged to eat properly untill about three weeks ago with a about seven brief relapses in between. I don't think it's a full blown eating disorder but it's definitely not right and next time i get "better" i want it to stick - how could i make sure this happens?
Thankss for reading this. (:
Eviexx
I'm stuck at the same sort of place. I have an ED but I'm scared to get treated for it. The thing that has helped me get started was that I told my best friend. I knew she wouldn't tell anyone she just looks after me and is someone to talk too and help remind me that when I get to Uni I'm going to get the help I need. Believe me I have doubts but i talk to her and she helps reassure me that treatment is going to help me in the long run. The best thing to do is just tell someone you trust and move on from there to get evaluated and get help.
:) Sonrisas
Thankss for replying (:
It's nice to know someone else understands how I feel. I've got friends that know about it that i could speak to i suppose - anything's worth a shot. (:
Good luck, by the way. Hope you get okay.
Eviexx
Thanks you too i'm here if you need to talk...I can be that person if you need it. Even if you aren't diagnosed with a specific ed just talking to a doctor or someone can be helpful to make these behaviors stop. I wish someone had told me that before I got to this point. Keep in touch :) Sonrisas
I've never even told an adult, let a lone a doctor. I've always been scared they won't believe me or they'll think i'm stupid :/ Would be a good idea though.
Sorry that i'm just throwing all of this on you. :s
Eviexx
Nooo i'm going through the same thing you're not throwing anything on me!! If i can't help myself then maybe I can help you. I leave for Uni and like I said I'm trying so hard to get up the courage to go get help there. Its just a struggle but if we do it together and talk along the way maybe things won't be as bad...:) Sonrisas
I'm nowhere near uni - still in secondary school but i guess it's all the same at any age or whatever.
I realised ages ago the only way to properly get better would be with counselling, etc i just wish i could be that brave. how long has it taken you?
Eviexx
It has taken me about 3 and a half years to tell even a friend. How about you?
Wow. you're strong. :) my best friend was ill before me and she got me into it so no time atall really but it took about three months to tell anybody else. i recognised it early and figured telling was the best way to get better so... my family or anyone else i don't think i could tell though. i think my friends knew even before me as i started skipping lunch and stuff.
Eviexx
Now is the time I need to be strong but I'm struggling between the sides in my head.It's tough but we have to be strong. I have struggled for so long. Don't get to the point where you are so sick of it but you can't stop. Please don't get to that point. You're strong and you can do it. Would you talk to the school nurse or like the guidance counselor? Even your friend might be able to help you even if she is still having trouble. :) Sonrisas
The friend who was ill and I had a fight earlier so... but the other friend who knows said i should speak to our deputy head of year (she's baasically our guidance counseller) but i'm not sure if i can. what if they think i'm lying? a couple of my friends thought that. :/
Eviexx
welcome to the site, wants to be happy. youll find a lot of resourceful info on here and great people..
are you seeing a therapist or getting help?
i wish the best for you...
also, a little note---please no mention of numbers , calories, excercise hours, weight, dress size, etc...so that we can keep the site safe.. from comparasions found in ED behaviours.
thank you, and happy to see you on here!
love
maureen