I've been overeating my whole life, but in the past 1 1/2 it's gotten worse because I feel so guilty after I eat I use to be of average built now I'm heavier and I hate my self for that. Food comforts me if I'm happy let's go out and eat if sad or bored I need to eat so I can feel better. Everything alway goes back to food.
Sounds like you've developed a relationship with food. Food is your best friend: it's there when you're happy, there when you're sad, etc...It's the loyal friend that you hate because while it makes you feel happy at the moment, the repurcutions of overeating is guilt..and because you feel guilts you start to eat to feel better...the cycle goes on and on. You have to find help to break your love-hate relationship with food. Talk to a friend, doctor, therapist, nutritionist, online group. Talk to someone who speaks the same language as we do: the eating disorder language. You are NOT alone. There is help. Make that choice to find help!
Thank you, I will talk to someone. I can't deal with these emotions anymore, the pleasure and the guilt is to much for me. I've always been this strong women that no matter what stays strong and positive, but this is to much even for me.
Sashee...can you make a list of things to do for yourself that are relaxing and give you comfort that don't involve disordered eating behaviors? I know this feels like a viscious cycle, that you cannot break, but perhaps when you feel the urge to go to food in a way that will leave you feeling worse, you can choose another activity that can replace it? Reading, listening to music, have coffe/tea with a friend, take bubble bath, take a relaxing walk.....what can work for YOU? Wishing you a better day...Jan ♥