How do you feel about your ED?

Mental Health Eating Disorders & Body Dysmorphia
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I feel like mine controls me. This song describe exactly how I feel. Like i'm stuck inside and no one can see how I really feel because I do not look sick on the outside. It helps me realize i am depressed and sad and want help (and am getting it) but that i'm scared to death of it. Here is a link to the song but I'll write the lyrics here as well.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ex7NFDXQoo

I'm in here, can anybody see me?
Can anybody help?

I'm in here, a prisoner of history,
Can anybody help?

[CHORUS]
Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
Living inside of me.

I'm in here, I'm trying to tell you something,
Can anybody help?

I'm in here, I'm calling out but you can't hear,
Can anybody help?

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/sia-lyrics/i_m-in-here-lyrics.html]
Living inside of me.

I'm crying out, I'm breaking down,
I am fearing it all,
Stuck inside these walls,
Tell me there is hope for me
Is anybody out there listening?

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
Living inside of me.

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
Living inside of me.

I'm in here, can anybody see me?
Can anybody help?

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Thank you for sharing. An ED is confusing and painful, just as recovery is. The important difference is that the pain of recovery is leading you out of the pain of the ED. Please believe in your own power, and work your recovery plan as recommended! You do not have to allow the ED to overpower you any longer! Thinking of you....Jan ♥

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Thanks Jan :) You always know what to say to make me smile and keep me motivated. I appreciate it so much!!! HUGS

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Hang in there…you CAN do this…:heart:

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I see that if you dont look sick then it makes it that more scary to share with people about the Eating Disorder. Alot of family members seem to be in denial when they are told. This is one part that i hide behind ... i have thought for long time .. well i dont look sick so its ok to ignore this thing and just continue on the path that im on.. well its not ok im finding that one out the hard way. Supressing it only seems to make it grow larger and larger problem. Being of average weight i dont look like the stereotyped person that would have an Eating Disorder. As a teen i looked it and then got help but as an adult struggling with it all again.. unfortunately ive been able to hide behind the bigger problems and just look like nothing is wrong when actually inside all of it was tearing me apart crying to just have someone listen and take some the pain away.

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I hear ya! Know you're not alone. Is there anyone you can talk to about it? Know we are always here If you want to talk <33 Keep your head up

7

I so get that, it is a great song very honest from your heart. Stay strong dear.

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Thanks cassie <3 Always here if you need me

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Thank you very much. Same goes for you my dear

I have been writing some poetry about ED and reading some of my old stuff. I have not writen in a long time.