I actually do think i am bi
Ive always been interested in breasts
I don't know if i want to live if I am
If it's what makes you happy then who cares? Be bi. There are happy bi people.
But you should seriously consider talking to a therapist.
I think your HOCD is decieving you, but so what if you are bi? What is the worst thing that can happen? You can still choose to be with only men. And to be honest, sexuality is so fluid that many women are in the middle of the spectrum.