i am 19 and i have been stealing since i was 16. it started out as something harmless like stealing a top or a dress with my friends to go to a party. but it has gotten worse since. we have stolen over 10k of items with this one friend im no longer friends with and i have told my friends about it a few years later (present). they were all so shocked and i never realised how terrible this habit of mine was. every store i went, every thing i bought i felt like i had to take something little because i deserved to. and because of how good it felt to know i managed to get away with something. maybe its the thrill but also the anxious paranoia that comes after, is somehow oddly, sickeningly addicting. i got caught when i was 18. for stealing alcohol. i was planning to take my life away of some sorts with prescribed anti depressants and lozerapam but i got caught before i could pull through with the two bottles of alc. my mom and brother got called down to the station at 12am and my friend witnessed everything. but she went home before coming to the station with me because she had no idea i stole any of that. she saw me cry because i got caught and thats when i told her i have a problem and that has to be one of the most humiliating events to have ever occured in my life. i went home and my face was so sore from crying all the way from the police station and back to home. i was even going to be sent to a mental institution after. that was 6 months ago. i havent stolen anything in a while after that i never really dared to. but i found myself taking things that are "free" by taking decorations hung up on streets, just anything. it didnt even matter if it was free i just needed to take it. that slowly built up my confidence for stealing again and i stole a few items from clothing stores. and here i am. the last time i stole was probably a month ago. i need help
Well, you really need to get over that urge of stealing. If you look at the consequences of stealing, it could get rid of the urge. I believe you should tell your mother about your problem, so she can help you. Do not hide any of this from her.