I am a 33 year old mother of 2 and I have been battling this disease now for over 20 years. I feel good then I relapse and each time I do it gets worse than the last one. I know I am about starting a cycle again and I feel like there is nothing I can do about it. I know I need to be strong for my kids but I just can't fight it. I feel like how can I be strong for them when I cry and hate what I see in the mirror because it is so fat and hideous. I though as I got older I would have less cycling and it seems like I am having the thoughts even more. I need everything to be perfect, my family, school, work, house, but I am not and it drives me crazy. I have started to not eat now and I don't know how I am going to get around it with my husband but I am going to try. I have about 9 weeks to get down to where I want to be so hopefully I can do it.
I can relate to not eating. But mine was due to sickness. But there is still that pull to starve myself. I have to make myself eat. At least eat healthy lite things. Anything, or my health goes downhill.
asadmom
I know how you feel. I have been struggling for years as well. I am a 42 year old mom of 3. I find that I have a harder time as I get older too. I thought it would be easier. I want everything to be perfect as well. But... what is perfect??? I don't think we ever get there. There will always be something else that can be better. Not eating will actually make the feeling of unperfection worse. Focus on your beautiful children and think of being and keeping strong for them.
I know it is extremely hard. I don't do that well at it myself..... but the best we can do is try.
Be strong!