I am doing so bad. It just gets worse and worse, I feel like

I am doing so bad. It just gets worse and worse, I feel like I'm shutting down from the world and losing this battle. What is real anymore? Is there any advice I can get to counter a spike or some reassurance?

Keep fighting my friend. We have good days and we have bad days and it's really hard, trust me I know. Hold on to who you were before. We can't provide reassurance because it only makes things worse but definitely seek out a therapist or someone who specializes in OCD and talk it out with them. Try to not lose sight of who you are.

@dontknow123 I try to but I can’t even remember sometimes. It’s also hard because my girlfriend hasn’t been as supportive as I wish she was I mean shit I haven’t seen her in almost a week because she’s “too busy” even though she drives and she could easily come over here, she acts like her parents are really controlling even though we’re 17 and they’re super cool. It’s very hard to find the time for a therapist because since summer started im working 7-7 many days and have summer school for a credit that I don’t have enough room for next year. I feel trapped with no way out.

We all feel like this somedays dude. I promise you it gets better. Have you seen Defoes videos on youtube?

Yeah they calm me down some but sometimes I doubt this is actually OCD and that scares the hell outta me

If you didn't doubt that it actually OCD, if you were thinking "yeah i'm 100% sure this is OCD and there is no other possibility", then perhaps i could say that you don't have OCD. OCD is called the doubting disease, it makes you feel uncertain about everything (even the facto of having ocd)

Thanks a lot man! That helps

No matter how hard it gets, friend, don't ever lose hope. As said before, we all have good days and bad days, and this is life at its best. Hang in there.

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