I am feeling bad about myself. I have been having trouble wi

I am feeling bad about myself. I have been having trouble with masturbation it has become something that I am not proud of. It's been over a year since I did it last, but I still have waves of guilt and shame. When I fantasize it's always about my first sexual experience when I lost my virginity at the tender age of 16. I see that lonely teenage girl she had no one to confided in about what she had experienced and she felt scared and confused about love and sex. I am really looking for some one I can exchange messages with the last person stopped sending me messages.

Obviously, you are the only one who knows and understands your feelings on your sexuality.
But I have never seen masturbation as a bad thing, assuming it's not compulsive...
Is it related to your religion, or your upbringing?

Or is pornography involved and you feel like that is not healthy for you?

@jamiemaddrox2020 Sometime it can be quite compulsive. Many years ago, I couldn’t stop myself and kept on masturbating several times, but mine problem isn’t porn it is fantasizing