I am not so good.
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I just found this site... and wondering if there are any moms out there dealing with heroin addiction.... I'm sorry my son is a heroin addict... and I have been aware of it.... for a while and have been hopelessely trying to get him help before it got out of control..... well it has but thank god he has agreed to finally seek help.... he has detoxed and did quite well but on his 7th day he was theraputicallty discharged with another person over something silly.... they broke a rule when smoking outside and he kinda got in the middle of things.... and they let him go and he pleaded with them that he needed to stay to get better! I don't understand that but whatever... anyway he came home and we were getting him set up to go to another facility and I wanted him admitted immediately but we had to wait for a bed . I was afraid he would use again if he wasn't in some sort of treatment... as it turned out.... when he got to the other facility he had used so he had to go and detox somewhere else before he could return there.... they took care of all that.... but let me tell u we are not equipped to deal with all of this... he had tried three times that I know of to come of this awful drug.... by himself but to no avail..... this is a terrible disease and I am so worried that this has ruined him.
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@ginnysueblue It’s sad that they turned him away. Be grateful that he’s wanting the help though. Many of us are still struggling and holding onto hope that our child will wake up and realize he needs help to beat this battle. Mine goes to jail on Monday for 90 days. All because I called 911 when he overdosed in our home. Little did I know he would face legal issues because there was some heroin and a needle still in the house. His charges got dropped down to a misdemeanor but still requires jail time. Part of it includes a drug program while he’s in there…so come Monday, I feel like I’ll be able to breath some knowing he’ll be away from the heroin. Just that this week has been nothing but bitterness on his part towards me. It’s one hell of an emotional rollercoaster. Like them, we are going to have to take this one day at a time. I wish him all the very best and hope he gets back into rehab soon.
Oh wow Mom717 so sorry to hear all of this.... I will pray for your son and your family.... the day my son went to the first facility..... my husband and I cleaned his room out from top to bottom..... you would not believe what we found and threw out....my son did not use the needle but however he snorted and we found plenty of straws and baggies out... the whazoo under the bed in drawers covered up....etc... our first reaction was disgust and we were so mad.... but I know it is a disease andk we are trying to deal with it also one day at a time.... Yesterday I even went out I his car and found a few baggies and a straw... and got rid of them.... it makes me mad.... because I knew he was doing something and I was trying to get him help and he refused me many times....n u don't know how many people and places and info I looked into and he wouldn't go or he lied to me about going.. when he started to get sloppy with his habit (leaving evidence around and I found it like the bathroom....) I told him you gotta get help.... if you don't you can no longer live here because we don't want this in the house etc...... he finally gave in with much resistance at first but now I think he really might?? know how bad his addiction is.... cuz to me it was bad.... he's gonna be 23.... and he's practically broke..... had three or four jobs and because of this couldn't hold them down plus he first went to college and couldn't even get through two semesters .... so this is where we are right now... one day at a time.... I feel a little bad because where he is at he is allowed (from detox) 10 mins for a phone call and he called last night and we missed it... so hopefully I will get to talk to him today.... thank you for listening I'm sorry if I went on and on like I said I feel for free and know what u are going thru.... and I will pray for your son . I agree I am so happy that right now my son is away from the heroin atmosphere he has gotten into.... and yes for some time it has also been an emotional rollercoaster for us too.
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@ginnysueblue My son is 21 and been a user for a couple of years now. Well, actually…probably closer to 4 yrs in total. He started with pain pills (snorting) and then somewhere along the way, he got into heroin. I too have read and read and read up on this terrible addiction. I can’t even describe the nightmare of having to break in the bathroom door to get to him…and then hoping I remembered CPR while waiting for EMTs. That is an image that we will NEVER forget. At the hospital, he refused rehab so I told him he couldn’t come home. I haven’t seen him much since 1/12 and to be quite honest, I’m a nervous wreck when he does come here. Absolute panic is what I guess I would call it. I’m fine as long as he’s sitting with us, but the minute he gets up and starts walking thru the house, my heart just sinks. It’s a fear that I never want to go thru again. Him getting jail time…well, not sure if that is what he truly needs, but at least for 90 days, I may find some relief. I just have to get thru this weekend until I pick him up to take him to jail. He’s become quite bitter. Hopefully while he’s gone he does some serious soul searching. At least that’s what I’ll be praying for.
@darketernal I agree with you… that it is a fight between us, him and this awful demon! I have already done that he detoxed for 7 days… was doin good but was discharged from the facility (therapeutically) with another boy over some silly rule… and… he begged this facility to let him stay cuz he wanted help… but they let him go… he was home merely 1 or two… waiting to go to another facility and on that day he used… we had to work (my husband and I and I had tried mercifully to get him in the facility asap!) so as of right now… he is in detox again… they allow us to speak with him on the phone once a day for 10 mins… he seems to be doing good but will be going back to the rehab facility in a few days (a different one) so all we can do is pray that he will do some serious soul searching and try to beat this awful awful demon! I thank you for your support it means so much… Actually I think I do a lot better with support writing my feelings down than really talking and facing people… Right now my husband and I hate the world… but I know we must get over that… thanks for your input!