I am really at my end in life altogether. I know it gets better for many...I have told myself for years it will get better, and then year after year worse and worse...used, abused, cheated on, manipulated and too ill to do anything about it.
Some of us tend to build unhealthy relationships that lead to repetitions of the past. I myself am guilty of it. I bring people in who are of a certain type becuse I am familiar with their emotional and mental type and know that it will suit my own psyche needs, even though they are negative psyche needs like my gaurdian complex and I end up being used by them. I always tell myself, but this one had a good heart and potential. I also bound myself too tightly up in them, invested in them and took their failures and abandonments as my own. Sometimes, to understand why our relationships are not working the way we want, we have to question ourselves as well and how we structure them. Its a complex and alienating process at first because if you dont so whats familiar, you end up grasping. Just my perspective and may not be related to you at all but sharing in case. Respect and I hope you find relief.
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