I am scared for my life its in ruins i dont want to do this anymore anything i eat is thrown ip... I try but i feel sick if i keep food down im at my lowest ive been to years in treatment the day i het out i throw up. Here i am now completing a binge. Im terrified of gaining weight. I need advise how to stop. My health is so scary i honestly think ill die if i dont. To top this off im type one diabetic. Im alone all day my husband has no clue whats going on im to disgusted and scared tell. I have done the most insane things. I need help. I dont no were to go anymore. And im having such bad mood swings all thw time with depression im only 18 and im already almost gone.
Hey hop101! Don't give up! Already you're aware! Telling someone you trust is scary but it's the one thing that will free you! I just told my Mom that I relapsed hours after we had an encouraging talk! I was so tempted to lie, but I've been lying to her for years. This hopefully will just help me to STOP before I start the bingeing and purging....maybe not now but eventually. Otherwise, Go on a walk, or stretch or get out of the house, if you can...run from the temptation.
I find that I can stop binges and throwing up if I feel confident in what I'm eating. So choose foods that make me feel good. To give you an idea: I have Special K with yoghurt and fruit, nuts and seeds every morning. Give me toast or sugar cereal and I"ll vomit. The key reason is that 'unhealthy' foods give me anxiety. So try sticking to foods that don't give you anxiety. Also, stay busy and focus on other things. You might try and tell your husband- he needs to know. Good luck.