I am still trying hard to make things work. Last night she came and hugged me cos she saw that i was hurting. Later on we chatted and i told her how badly what she did has hurt me. I told her i didnt think it possible to continue with her. When i was trying to make it work, she ignore me. Now when I said its over she wants to talk to me. I spoke about a divorce. She seemed okay with it. More interested in what will happen to the house. Says we should keep it for our kids and not sell it. Expects me to still live there. I told her that I cannot see her everyday and not be her husband cos i still love her. She doesnt talk about how much she loves me. She keeps saying ... do it for the children. I just no i will hurt even more everyday as it will be a constant reminder. She still wants to live her life like nothing happened. That i cannot understand. This despite me saying that I dont approve. I said I cannot stop her but she must know that if she does that i will be gone. Out of the house .... out of her life. I dont have anywhere to go .... but i cant keep living a life where she is happy cos we are all together in one house yet our marriage has fallen apart and she is not working with me to bring it back together.
I too want out of the house. He wanted a divorce and when I asked for a separation first bcoz I know I cannot live with him during the process he ignored me. I kept asking, but he didn't want to hear it bcoz he said he didn't want to waste his money. He has been abusing me emotionally and he doesn't care. I try and escape during the weekend with my two babies and at first he was okay with it..but now he is harassing me about that. All I do is go to my parents or siblings or to the park bcoz I cannot stand being iN this house..and honeatly with our lawyers fee we cannot afford it. He blames me for his unhappiness and now he blames me coz we r running out of money. Stay strong, it will be vey difficult but as I said before this place helps.
Thank you. Yes it helps immensely to talk about it