It is so bad that no one can stand to be around me or say anything to me.
I always has have issues with my temper ever since I was small,I wasn't the kid that like playing and sharing with others I mainly played and enjoyed being by myself.
I never had true or best friends growing up because I do not trust anyone or couldn't handle rejection real well.
I tell no lie I didn't hangout or try to be in a cliche or develop any form of relationship
I am more of a loner than a go along with the crowd type person.
I have the most explosive temper a person can have.
I hold grudges and don't forget the wrong done to me.
I am just that way I can't let it go because it just eat at my core.
I have went to a psychiatrist before, but it was for another issue.
I feel trap and I know that no one cares about my problems so, if I ever really lose it just know I tried the best that I can.
I am sorry to hear that. I used to get angry as I had so much stress building inside of me. Also the anxiety would make me sick. Is that what is going on?
I mean today I got so angry that I rather isolate myself than to speak to anyone.
This is a problem bigger than me or for anyone to bear alone.
I guest I am always on the defensive, but if a person don't recognize that they causing it there is no hope of diplomatically handle the problem or situation.
I'm trying to not fall into my depression phase because when I do this I get very hostile and violent.
Everything just stresses me out even waking up I f I sleep at all I am tense.
My grandfather died from stress and I refuse to die that way so, it's like I said before I just would not want to me that day.
I mean today I got so angry that I rather isolate myself than to speak to anyone.
This is a problem bigger than me or for anyone to bear alone.
I guest I am always on the defensive, but if a person don't recognize that they causing it there is no hope of diplomatically handle the problem or situation.
I'm trying to not fall into my depression phase because when I do this I get very hostile and violent.
Everything just stresses me out even waking up If I sleep at all I am tense.
My grandfather died from stress and I refuse to die that way so, it's like I said before I just would not want to be me that day.
Blaze, when one fears their circumstances & what the future will hold its only understandable to be angry & stressed. Have you ever tried different coping skills to ease some of your pain?
Anger is a secondary emotion. That means that there is
another emotion that is triggering the anger. You will
need to look at what feelings the anger is covering up.
For example:
A wife is upset with her husband. He's always coming
home late and now once again he's an hour late. While he is
gone, the wife must deal with a messy house, children who
are over active, screaming, and refusing to listen or
co-operate. One child is constantly climbing up on her
and clinging to her. She's tired and frustrated. She needs and wants help but she feels that she's alone because the
husband is never there to give her the support and help
she needs. So when the husband comes home, she starts to
scream and yell at him for being late. She's angry but the
real issue is not her anger but the fact that she's feeling
alone and frustrated.
It may help if take some time to look inside and find
out what the trigger emotions are in your life. Then you
will need to deal with these emotions and as they start to
heal then the anger will also lessen and you can start to regain control of your self.
It's not an easy thing to do. But as difficult as it is.
Remember, that you can do it. I find that writing or
recording my thoughts and then reviewing them later when
I'm not upset, is a good way to reveil what really happening inside.
Again, remember, you can do it.
Dear Blazefly,
It's like you wrote exactly every word about anger that I have dealt with my whole life. Incredible. Well, I have relieved my anger and bitterness by going in my bathroom and smoking. Like a time out. It doesn't work, but I can't think of what else to do. And I also don't listen to anyone trying to help me. I really don't believe anyone truly understands.