I don't know how he did it. How he made me feel like I'm at fault. We went weeks when everything was fine and then, out of nowhere, he came home and I did what I always did. Said what I used to say in the exact same way I always used to say it, and suddenly he was a different person. It happened so fast. And when it was over, it's like I stepped out of my own body and watched it happen to another person. Like it wasn't real. So then I thought I was crazy, that I made it worse than it really was, because he pretended like it didn't happen, too, so I think, " ok, maybe it didn't. Maybe I'm imagining things."
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I have a firm belief that trying to convince yourself that you are imagining things is a coping mechanism and what you saw/went through, happened.
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Wow I've never thought of it like that. I've blocked a lot of it out and I kind of wish I hadn't so I can know for sure I'm not crazy and just imagined everything.