I don't know what happened to me. I used to be so caring and nice and loving. I just don't know where it all went wrong. What happened?. I guess from how ugly people have treated me I finally got tired of it. Now I'm just a mean cold hearted bitter person. I'm so harsh even when I really really don't mean to..I need help. To be honest I think I need to go back to the MH...that's where I seemed to find/take care of myself and the people there were so kind to me. They helped me to help myself. And no one judged. That's the best part. I helped them and they help me. It was like a family TTvTT..... I wish it was ok again. I wish I was ok.
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I know how u feel I've been abandoned for so long
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You have to do what you think is best for yourself. If that means going back, then go back. I can relate to suddenly becoming a bitter and jilted person. Its a normal reaction to being mistreated by people who you should have been able to trust. I don't know how much help I can give you, but I can give you someone you can talk to judgement free. I can be there if you need to vent. And I wish the very same thing about myself. I want to be me again.
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@zombiepenguin yeah…but thank you so much lovely♡…I mean I hate the person I’ve turned into. It’s not me at all but I can’t help it. Because of people walking all over and being harsh to me I just got tired of it. They made me become this mean person. But I don’t want to be this way. I hate it. I’m starting to really hate myself to. Something I havnt felt in a very long time. Something that the wonderful people at the hospital showed and helped me do. But all the hate is coming back now.
I feel like that so much. I hate knowing that other people go through this too. If you ever wanna talk, I'm here for you.
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@AzTz thank you love♡…and yeah it really sucks.
I'm so sorry you feel this way:( I feel this way too except wonder if I should go to an eating disorder clinic but in scared and my parents can't afford it nor can I. I went to a place one and it helped but my behaviors returned due to my low self esteem anxiety and depression. I feel your pain
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@UC_Silver_Linings Hi, I’m sorry you are in so much pain… I too suffer from an ED. I have for well over 15 plus years… I’m here for you anytime. PM me please… I find PM’s, are a much better way for me and, the other person, to express myself / themselves more, openly and, freely… I’m nearly always awake as, I suffer from Insomnia also so… Anytime, I’m here… I Understand and, know what, your going through and, if I can help, I will. I think by just talking with somebody who does Understand, helps in itself… Thinking of you… Sent with love, Trish x
Hi Analexis, I'm so sorry you are feeling the way you do... No matter what you say though....Yes, you might think 'IT' but, that 'Kind', 'Loving', 'Caring', 'Compassionate', (and much more ) person is still 'YOU'... It's just got hidden... Its buried itself, 'Deep-Inside' to 'Protect You' from, what is at times, a very 'Harsh, Bitter, Angry, Violent, Horrific, Sad, Lonely, Despicable (and much more) 'WORLD' that, we all 'LIVE IN' and, from some of the ' Horrendous People' who live alongside of us... Life is so 'Hard' and a 'Constant Struggle' but, You are Not Alone... There are many people on these SG sites that Care and, I am one of them... I am here for you and, you can PM me anytime, day or night... I too have suffered in this 'World' at the hands of 'Others'... I Understand your Pain, Anger, Anguish, Suffering and, I would like to be there for you... If I can help, I will... But, I'm always here for you. I won't Abandon You or, Let Go Of You... You can 'TRUST' me totally... This is 'Not' a word I use lightly. 'trust' is a Major Issue for me as, I was Sexually Abused from the Age of 7 / 15 by 'HIM' ( Father & 5 of his friends)... For Me, the 'Ultimate Betrayal' so, I when I offer my 'Trust' that, for me is...... You can 'Imagine'... I will support you then, I'l leave it up to you... I just wanted to reach out to say, I Care... Thinking Of You and Sent With Love, Trish x