I don't know what to do i want to get better but i don't wan

I don't know what to do i want to get better but i don't want to gain weight. I'm scared and tired and i just want to feel beautiful and love myself :/
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I don't know what to do, I want to get better but I don't want to gain weight. I'm scared and tired and all I want is to feel beautiful about myself and love who I am. :/

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Hugs and support to you. What do you think would be a good first step in positive self esteem, steps toward health and happiness?

I feel the same way. It's hard. I wish I believed I was beautiful like people tell me but my struggle is when my husband looks at another female. Even if he says it's not like that, it triggers me to not feel good enough. I've felt this way in every relationship I've had and have been cheated on by some so it makes it harder. I don't know if I'll ever feel beautiful again but nothing is impossible.