I dont know how to handle this anymore. Im always frustrated because its always something wrong with me. Theres always a bad thing going on with me. And, I HATE it. I was taking Vicodin and Oxy without anyone knowing for 2+ weeks and then I went off of them cold turkey. The oxy first and the vicodin last because it was harder for me. Im always feeling nauseous, I think thats because of me not taking those pills. I told my mom last night and gave them up. I know, that is a huge step towards recovery from this drug addiction and I feel OK about that. But because of the nauseous, my eating disorders are getting out of control(I have bulimia and anorexia). I eat and then feel so sick that I go purge. Then, I have gone 1 whole day with only eating 350 calories. Thats how much I have to eat to take my anti-psychotic. That pisses me off. This medicine is new on the market and the company makes a new medicine that you have to eat with. And this medicine doesnt cause hunger like all the others do. Im just sick and tired of fighting this battle. I really am. Ive been cutting myself and I know thats bad. But, isnt it better than taking pills that could kill me? Too much going on with me. And then school is a hassle. Im a 10th grader at online school. Its fun when Im caught up. But, Im behind in all my subjects and I dont know what to do. 44 days left of school. But because of my special needs, I get till the end of the summer to finish. But, I dont want that, I want to be done with 10th grade when all the other kids are finished. Is all this possible?
Hi Sasha, I am so proud of your for getting off of Vicodin and Oxy, and giving them both up to your mom. That really took a lot of strength and that's why I know that you have the inner strength to get through all of this. May I ask what type of treatment you are receiving for your ED and does your mom know of this? The most important thing is your health and well-being, please try not to put too much pressure on yourself with your school work, because that could take away from your treatment and recovery. If you can put a plan of action into place for your school work, where you create a timeline and set daily/weekly/monthly goals, then that may take a lot of the stress and weight off of you.